What even is tumblr anymore?
I’ve been gone so long.
Its so nostalgic reading back through all my posts from a year ago.
I’m back and I’m angry
I AM HAVING A LOT OF ISSUES.
I have moments where I just want to tell someone everything but I can’t. It stays trapped and gets agitated with no room to move. Then I get stressed.
I cry for no reason. I get paranoid for no reason. I get angry, I get upset, I get frustrated, I feel like I want to hurl something at the wall.
Why is this happening?
I feel like I’m turning into someone crazy. Crazier than I already am.
I have days where I want to just crawl into bed. I look at my university deadlines and feel like I’ll never make them. I feel like every bitchy tweet or status is about me. I feel like people look at me for all the bad reasons. I feel like I won’t get anywhere after university.
“I guess a lot of people feel like this…” is what I just wrote to follow this all up.
NO, not this time. I’m not going to pretend that I’m normal and everything’s fine. I AM THE ONLY PERSON WHO FEELS LIKE THIS. I want to be special. I want to be one of a kind. I want people to care about me because I care about them. I don’t want to be seen as “cute” or “sweet” or “quiet” ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
I CAN GET FUCKING ANGRY.
I JUST NEED TO LET EVERYTHING OUT.
I haven’t been on here in ages. My life seems like it’s changed so much. Who am I? What am I?
Crazy mix of emotions.
Guys…. I’ve won two weekend tickets to The L Word convention in November….
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EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
OMGOSHOMGOSHOMGOSHOMGOSH!
*dies*
Kate! I’m coming for you! I’m coming to see you soon!!
DON’T look at us. Thanks.
I don’t get it. I’m at a straight club… with friends and a girl I like. We are sort of kissing a lot (we are very drunk) and all the men can do is stare, and laugh, and be complete morons.
I mean, even one of the bouncers outside the club (when we went outside for air) had seen us kissing and said we could only come back in if we kissed again; (WHAT) and being stupid and drunk…. we did.
Oh man. I regretted that in the morning.
Why are some men so stupid?
Can lesbians only get some privacy if they run off to a gay club? (which there is only one of in Northampton anyway)
Oh laaaaaa…. just a bit of a vent going on.
Why do people rant and rave about being forever alone?
You’re gonna find someone okay?
Just stop with the asking for sympathy stuff. It’s getting boring.
You have to have some belief in yourself.
Also, enjoy being single while you can!
Because when you ARE married with ten kids or whatever, you’re going to look back on these lovely single days and wish you’d made the most of it… y’know, gone out and flirted with whoever you liked, hopped on a train spontaneously to see a friend, lay in bed all day eating ice cream and watching tv with your phone turned off…
Seriously, enjoy being young and free for a bit!
Er…. I got with this this girl (like a lot) the other night and then she gave me her number whilst we were both drunk. She forgot to save it so texted in the morning asking who it was. After this commenced probably the most awkwardly polite text conversation of my life…
OH MY.
We’d sort of already drunkenly made out two weeks before so I guess it wasn’t too awkward… (oh, who am I kidding, it was fun. THERE I SAID IT)
OH LIFE, what am I going to do with you.
Something is wrong with disc 2 and disc 3 of my Season 6 The L Word Boxset. I cannot describe how upset I am….
I can’t even send them back because I bought them ageees ago! I had to watch all the other seasons first!
What absolute shit luck that the last two discs should be faulty.
GRRRHDJFHSJDFHDFJH
Sometimes I just hate being gay… like tonight. The music was shit, my feet hurt and my alcohol buzz had gone and I couldn’t conjure up a sober one. And all the girls were getting with guys. And I have a shit gaydar. So I didn’t even get with anyone.
Def going to a gaybar next time.
At least pre-drinks was epic.
Boys are not appealing.
It makes me quite sad.
